Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Dreams or Nightmares?

I've always been a big dreamer. I'm not talking about pie in the sky dreams like finding out I'm actually British royalty, what I really mean is that I dream a lot when I sleep. Really great dreams too. You know the kind that when you wake up you want to fall back asleep to see where the dream goes. The "what happens next?"kind of thing! My dreams are also always realistic type things. I never dream I'm a crazed alien out to redecorate the world! (Although sometimes I feel like that in my awake world!) My dreams are always plausible which is what makes them so interesting to me. (Who is to say Dylan McDermott won't knock on my door one day?)

But lately I've been having anxiety dreams. The barn show is just ten days away and for the past week I've been having terrible dreams (nightmares?) about the barn. Like people don't show up. Or they show up and we're not ready. Or I don't sell a single thing. I know I'm just anxious because this is my first show but I'm finding it so unsettling. I really want to sell everything! I want everything to be fabulous and most importantly I don't want to let the other barn girls down.

I've always been the "glass is half full" type person so I need to get back to my old dreams, where everything is lollipops and rainbows. These "nightmares" I keep having just don't work for me!


People Who Know Me Would Say: said...

It will be fine. You know, you can teach yourself to wake yourself up from unpleasant dreams. I will say (in my dream) "This is just a dream. If I open my eyes really wide, I'll wake up." And I do. Every time.
Sounds corny, but it works.

Tardevil said...

I guarantee you you're going to sell something! We're women - we can't resist! :O) Read a romance novel - maybe that will get you back to your "good" dreams! ;o)

Unknown said...

I'm a dreamer too, and they are mostly vivid and about good things, but when I'm worried about my kids or anything about money, I have odd nightmares.
People are going to show up, heck if I was closer I'd show up.......you have me passing by thrift shops and consignment shops wondering what I can refurbish and re-use, I've never had much of eye for that, but I really want to try!
I hope you rest well.

Maisy said...

you are going to do awesome. don't worry. look how far you have come..only get better from here.
i'm sooo in your corner. i have full faith in you. go get em girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SudsnJewels said...

Gail - It is so normal to be nervous and it is funny how you express it. My thoughts are a bit different. What if you sold nothing? In fact, right now is a hard time and people are being more cautious. The important takeaway message is, that is no indicator as to how talented you are. I have had Open Houses when only a handful of people came and they were not shopping "big". BUT, then I have had Open Houses like last week, when they embarrassingly tell me I am their creative hero. So, I look at it like this. If you are adding good things to the world, and you are doing something you love, you cannot disappoint. You may not be able to measure it in sales...but it is there! GOOD LUCK... enjoy the journey.